Money and Values

"Your money, or your life." We know what to do when a burglar makes this demand of us, but not when God does."
~Mignon McLaughlin, The Second Neurotic's Notebook, 1966

I spent way too much money on medications at one point. I was on too many prescribed medications.
I was really freaking out about the symptoms I was having, and well meaning doctors were responding to my cries.
One doctor said to me, “You know, there is a difference between the brain and mind.”
Something in my soul wanted to retract from what he said….but I caught it before it was too late.
I went home and thought long and hard about it….and the next day someone else said it to me, this time it was a friend. She said it out of the blue.
I got it.
My brain is a gelatinous mass, it sends pain signals…pleasure; can get addicted to medications, it can even trick me.
But my mind…..well….seems to me that has something to do with my soul. What I value, where my heart truly resides, how I base my decisions….it has to do with me.
Where I was putting my money was showing me where my values were….and I knew I clearly hadn’t made up my mind about giving into these diseases…..or maybe I had.
I decided I was going to fight. I wasn’t taking this laying down anymore.
I E-mailed my doctor.
If I am going to be in pain, I am going to be in pain on my own terms!
Strange…isn’t it? What it is that provokes us to make stands in our life.
Successful thinking is all just a decision away.